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2011 vs 2012

20 Dec

2011 vs 2012

Company Christmas party pics — last year vs. this year

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Before and During – As of August 2012

7 Sep

Before & During, as of August 2012

The Art of Being Patient

11 Aug

I didn’t become a near-300lb girl over night. And I certainly won’t become the pinnacle of fitness overnight either. But sometimes… I get impatient with this fat-loss process.

The intention is not to sit here and whine about how long it’s taking for weight to come off. But I want to acknowledge my thoughts and feelings through this journey. And right now, I’m feeling pretty impatient. See, the number on the scale? It’s not moving much these days. I feel like it’s been 2 weeks since losing any pounds. I was thinking that losing 2 lbs a week was a pretty manageable (and pretty slow) goal. Now I’m wondering if I was being naive.

I try not to get too disappointed when I step on the scale and see no change (or gasp… being a few pounds heavier) that day. I remind myself that muscle weighs more than fat, and that my increased muscle mass is no doubt a significant reason that the number’s not decreasing at a steady pace. I also typically weigh myself in the evening (after a full day of eating and drinking lots of water), so there seems to be a lot of variance. I guess I just got used to seeing the number decrease so quickly at the beginning. The first 40 lbs (or however many there were those first 2 months) seemed to come off so quickly… did I think that would continue to the whole way through? To be honest… yeah, I kind of did.

Now it’s important to point out that the number on the scale is not the only thing that matters in seeing fat-loss progression. About a month or so ago, I began to lift weights 2-3 times a week. And it’s not  5lb dumbbells that I lift — it’s 115lb squats and deadlifts, 80 lb lat pull downs… you know…big girl weights. I can feel increased muscle tone in my arms and legs, and that’s great. I also know that muscle weighs more than fat… and if I’m increasing muscle mass, then it’s pretty easy to understand why the scale’s number isn’t decreasing as quickly as it used to. That doesn’t mean I’m not headed in the right direction or doing the right thing. It’s just a bit daunting to realize I still have 70 pounds to lose to hit my goal weight, and the time it’s taking to lose pounds these days makes me think this goal is still a very long time away.

All I can do is continue on my path, and just enjoy the journey. I’ve learned a lot, and I think I’ve inspired some people in my life– which makes me feel great. Co-workers, friends and family members continue to comment and acknowledge the hard work I’m putting in to lose weight and get healthy. The supportive comments really help keep my morale up. I just have to stay focused, stay positive, and really experience the present. I’ve always been a person who kind of lives in the future… always trying to anticipate things. This makes being content nearly impossible. So here’s to the present — and learning to be patient, while I wait for something I’ve spent almost my entire life wanting.

Just Keep Swimming

26 Jul

Don’t worry… even though I suck at blogging, I haven’t been sucking at my goals. In fact, things are going quite well!

I am now at around 233 lb — that’s almost 50 lbs lost from the 2009 weight I had last recorded. I may have lost more — we’ll never know because I never got a true start weight when I began eating healthy back in April. But it doesn’t really matter that much…does it? I’ve lost weight, people have noticed, and I find myself browsing in my closet in search of clothes that still fit.

I wanted to update with my current routine:

Diet:

I still eat paleo almost all the time. The times I don’t, I consider a “cheat” and I try not to have cheats more than only a few times a week, if that. I try to get plenty of proteins, veggies, and some fruits in every day. I’ve been trying to limit nuts and sweet potatoes since I heard they’re not so great for weight loss.

Exercise:

For a while, I was swimming 3 times a week, doing Zumba twice a week, and then Pilates/Barre class once a week. Then I realized that weight training is pretty important and I’d been neglecting it, so I’ve traded in Zumba/pilates for weight training. So currently:

Swim: Sun, Tues, Thurs

I was originally doing swim workouts based on yardage and workouts I found online that involved sets of swims, pulls, kicks, etc. Much like my high school years. For the past week or so, I’ve switched to doing HIIT and steady-pace, which is based on time rather than distance. I’ll warm-up with a 500 or 600 yard build (basically, a 10 minute warm-up), and then do 15 minutes of HIITs, alternating 30 seconds of sprinting with 1 minute of recovery. After the HIIT, I rest for 5 minutes (do some half-assed stretching in the pool), and then proceed to swim for another 15 minutes at a steady pace.

The school of thought here is that HIIT releases triglycerides into your blood stream, and then the steady-pace cardio helps to burn your fat even more after wards. It’s all great and dandy in theory, so I’m giving it a go. Eventually I’ll want to work up to 20-30 min of HIIT, and then 30 min of steady pace.

Weights: Mon, Wed, Sat

I’m working through The New Rules of Lifting for Women: Lift Like a Man, Look Like a Goddess. It’s nice to have a program to follow…otherwise I’d wander aimlessly through the weight section of the gym, or just avoid it completely. The book is focused on free weights. Free weights have always intimidated me… and I’m not quite over that yet. I do barbell squats, dead lifts, among other things. I feel like I see more tone in my arms/upper body, and I know my legs feel more toned…but I’m not sure if that’s a result of the weights, or just losing fat.

Friday is rest day.

So that’s it. That’s the routine… for now. I’m kind of wondering if I get enough cardio (since I only swim like 3 times a week, and it’s about 45 min a session). I always grew up believing cardio was where the fat-loss success was… but a lot of sources now indicate weight training to be the biggest tool in losing fat.

I do miss Zumba though.

What is a “Badass”?

13 Nov

I’m 26 now. Which means, it’s time to get serious… just in time for the holidays too.

Since this blog began as a statement that I am attempting to fulfill a childhood dream of becoming a 26-year-old badass, I suppose I should first define what exactly a badass is. I’m finding this is actually kind of difficult…

When I was a kid, being a “badass” meant:

1. Being physically fit (toned/muscular)

2. Being fiercely attractive/ having nice hair

3. Having martial arts expertise

4. Having a healthy dose of toughness (read: bitchiness).

My ideas of bad-assery has evolved since I was an 8 year old, so I suppose it’s time to put some qualitifcations in place so that I have some clear goals to work towards this coming year.

Revised Bad-ass qualities:

1. Self-confidence:

Ability to stand up for oneself, go against the grain, ask for what one wants/needs, clear communication, okay with confrontation.

2. Physically fitness:

I’m not asking for the body of a super-model of waif-like actress. I just want to be considered healthy for once in my life. This means if I can get in a weight range that is considered “normal” for my height, then that’s success, and all I ask for in terms of weight numbers. I want to be able to run a mile without needing to walk/stop, and do a few pull-ups

3. Intelligence

A badass takes time to stay informed, and know what’s going on in the world around them. Also… it’d be pretty badass to have general working knowledge of physics, chemistry, and some sophisticated math. These skills come in handy at the most random times.

4. Survival Skills

A true badass would be able to survive if society collapsed tomorrow. I’m pretty sure I’d be a goner at this point. I want to learn how to make a fire, and get a ‘survival kit’ together… just in case. You never know when shit may hit the fan.. may as well give yourself/your family a chance by stocking up on a few things and having a plan.

5. Self-discipline/Self-control

A badass can control their cravings and urges, and won’t let it get the best of them. Also, a badass will maintain a fitness routine and do what needs to get done. And procrastination should not be a crippling issue for a badass.

6. Talent/Skills

A badass knows him/herself. Weaknesses and strengths should be discovered and dealt with/encouraged/improved. A badass makes time to hone their skills, work on their weaknesses, and pursue their interests/passions.

7. Direction

A badass knows what he/she wants, and goes after it. And if the badass doesn’t know yet, they’ll actively research/do things to try and find that out. Nothing gets done by waiting for direction to come… it takes action to find out what works and what doesn’t.

8. Bravery

A badass isn’t afraid t look people in the eye, or confront an asshole. Ever seen that show What Would You Do? A badass would do the right thing and put the asshole in line.

9. Morals

A badass knows what’s right and wrong, and will not turn a blind-eye to wrong-doing. Also see “Bravery” above. A badass does not lie, cheat, or steal or tolerate those who do (actually, I got that from my Alma Mater, so I guess Aggies are badasses too).

10. Independence

A badass can depend on him/herself to survive and generally get shit done. A badass doesn’t need a friend to come with them to a concert that they really want to see… a badass will do what they want and go where they want alone and not feel like a lonely loser.

OK. So that’s what I have for now. But really, I know my concepts of what makes a badass will continue to evolve…this was just an exercise in brainstorming the goals I want to accomplish, habits I want to make and break, etc.

An Introduction (aka: “about” Fat-ass Kombat)

12 Sep

Hi. I’m Meghan. I’m 25 years old, and am turning 26 next month. 26 is a significant age to me: it is the year that I am to become a badass.

It all started with a video game. I was a child of the 90s, and like many of those who grew up in that era, I had a Sega Genesis. I enjoyed Sonic the Hedgehog, Flicky, Ms. Pac-man… but one game that I enjoyed the most was Mortal Kombat. I’d play that game for hours on end, (with the blood code ABACABB activated, of course). And since I’m a girl, and girls like to be girl characters, I gravitated to one character and one character only: Sonya Blade.

Sonya Blade was a badass. She was the only female character available, but that was okay because she was all I ever wanted to be. Beautiful, muscular, tough as nails, stubborn, and kills enemies by blowing them a fucking kiss. Yes. I wanted to become Sonya Blade in the worst way.

Mortal Kombat game with a little pamphlet in the case for the game cartridge. Inside this pamphlet, you could find general stats/info about each character in the game. Sonya, as it was written, was 26 years old. It was at that point I got it in my head that 26 was going to be an excellent year. I’d be a full-blown adult, at the pinnacle of my health, and an independent woman who took shit from no one.

Well, flash-forward to the present. I am the fattest I’ve ever been. I’m completely out of shape, couldn’t run a mile to save my life, and maintain a diet of foods that are processed, or high in sugar/fat/sodium/god-knows-what-else.

My physical body needs an overhaul, but so does my mind. I’m anxious, stressed out, and directionless. I had aspirations and good intentions as a kid/teen/young adult to work hard, succeed, and become some big bad awesome-bitch to be dealt with. Instead I’m self-conscious, shy, and freaked out all the time. Like a lot of twenty-somethings, I’m in the midst of a quarter-life crisis. I went to college for a degree that I have nothing to do with, professionally, at this time. I don’t really know what I should do with my life. And while I’m at an age that I have freedom to experiment and take risks, I’m paralyzed with fear and doubt.

Well kids, I’m turning 26. If I don’t become a badass now, I don’t think I ever will. And I really need this.. for myself. I’m tired of feeling like a percentage of what I could actually become. It’s time to grab life by the balls and actually do some shit. And the first step needs to be towards health and well-being. After all, when you’re planning on taking a huge road trip, you need to make sure your car is maintained and in good shape to get you anywhere (especially if it’s anywhere awesome and maybe a little hard to reach).

So welcome to my official weight-loss/self-improvement blog. The focus will, of course, be weight loss. That’s what I need the most at this point. Perhaps it will encompass other things (hobbies, taking risks, trying new things, etc)… in fact I hope it does. Because you need a lot more than just physical health to be a badass.

*.gif taken from: http://mortalkombat.wikia.com/wiki/Sonya_Blade)